Quiet

I am feeling very quiet these days. Introspective. Contemplative. I am a person that very much needs to have a strong grasp on the who and the why. Who I am and why is it that I do the things I do? When life brings major changes as it has for me these past few months, I often feel the need to retreat, to pull back so that I can think and evaluate and make sure that I am not losing myself and sight of my priorities amidst the change. Right now, I don't feel that I have much to … [Read more...]

Reflections on Allume

{Me and my sweet friend Faith. She's the reason that I went to Allume and I am so thankful for her encouragement.} I went to the Allume Conference with no plans, no goals, and no expectations, but with an open mind and an open heart to receive whatever God wanted to speak to me. And let me tell you, He didn’t just speak. In the words of Sarah Markley, He shouted. In fact, He even diverted my travel plans to allow me to spend 8 hours in a car with Sally Clarkson, who poured so much wisdom … [Read more...]

With Faith Like a Child

We sit on the blanket in the warm September sunshine sharing what we are thankful for and what we would like to pray about. This circle time that we do has quickly become our favorite part of learning at home. Stacked next to me are Bible storybooks and Scripture songs to help me teach them about God and His ways. They listen with eyes of wonder, pray sweet prayers thanking God for trees and butterflies, and ask Him to help the flowers grow again. Emma tells me that God doesn’t talk to … [Read more...]

32

Thirty found me fresh with grief, arms full with a new baby and an attached two year old, being passed the torch of a ministry with big shoes to fill and even bigger expectations of how much I could handle. It was a hard year. Thirty-one found me sandwiched between a family wedding and my women’s retreat directorial debut, a little overweight and a lot unhappy, searching for myself and unsure of a lot of things. It was a hard year. Today I turn thirty-two. And the winds are … [Read more...]

A Letter to My Teenage Self

Dear 16 Year Old Me, First just let me say, please stop trying to straighten your hair with that cheap curling iron. They will soon be inventing something called a flat iron, and it will change your life. But in the meantime, hair gel and a diffuser will help you tame that frizz. While we are on the subject of looks, let me also say that YOU ARE NOT FAT! Stop buying all of those celebrity magazines and obsessing over how much they weigh compared to you. Just focus on being healthy and try … [Read more...]

The Time Has Come….Go!

I grew up watching old reruns of "I Love Lucy" on Nick at Nite. One of my favorite episodes was the one where Lucy is due to give birth to Little Ricky and while she resting in her room not yet ready to go to the hospital, Ricky, Fred, and Ethel are in the living room practicing what they will each do when she announces that she is ready to leave. Ricky starts every practice sequence with, "The time has come...go!" and then each of them calmly proceeds with their part of seeing her off to the … [Read more...]

Of whom I am the worst…

"Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners - of whom I am the worst." 1 Timothy 1:15 Really Paul? You are the worst sinner? I kind of have a hard time believing that seeing as how God used you to write most of the New Testament. Maybe you are just trying to make yourself more relate-able to your readers... I think this is how I have felt most of my life whenever coming across this passage of scripture. Maybe not directly, … [Read more...]

Reflect. Repent.

The pains in my empty stomach remind me throughout the day of what this day is all about. Ash Wednesday. Repentance. This is my first year observing Ash Wednesday and Lent. I decided to fast today and now I just want to go to bed so that I can get up and eat breakfast. How did Jesus do it for 40 days? Self-discipline. Something that I am not so great at. The evidence of which has once again reared it's ugly head in this most recent season of my life. Too many cookies, endless episodes … [Read more...]

DIY Gratitude Tree

Last Thanksgiving, we started the tradition of making a gratitude project to take over to my in-laws house for our family Thanksgiving meal. Last year, we made watercolors leaves and each member of the family wrote what they were thankful for on a leaf and hung it on a branch. Then after dinner, we took turns sharing what we wrote. This year, I thought it would be fun for the boys to paint a tree because painting is probably their most favorite thing to do. My husband had a piece of scrap … [Read more...]

31

Today is my 31st birthday. No big post of personal goals for me today, even though I am always assessing my life, making changes and setting goals behind the scenes. It's just the type of person I am.   Today I just want to take a quick moment to share my heart.    I'm not going to lie. This past year wasn't an easy year for me. But a few months ago (after some evaluating, making changes and setting goals), I got myself back into gear and I am feeling much better. I am … [Read more...]