I have to be honest with you. I have been off my game for a bit.
I am a person that thrives on rhythm, routine, and schedules. I do not like surprises. I do not like chaos.
And lately, my life has felt a little chaotic.
I think it all started in October. We went to our fall student retreat, then left immediately for vacation, then I left immediately for Allume, and then we took a new ministry job at a church an hour away, then we put our house up for sale, and since then we have been showing the house regularly, commuting back and forth between our house and a hotel, and then there was Christmas. And our second car died. All while Aidan began to show signs of serious gluten intolerance.
And here I am.
And for some reason when life gets crazy, I really start to slack in all areas of self-care. Lately, I haven’t been eating right, exercising regularly, or drinking enough water. I haven’t been having regular quiet time. And I haven’t been taking time to plan the things I want to be intentional about, like our home(pre)school and family discipleship, as well as my personal goals.
The new chapter that this year brings seems like the perfect time to get life back in order, and yet I am having a hard time bouncing back. I think it’s because right now, this new year looks a lot like last year. We are still showing our house, still commuting, still driving one car, our schedule is still unpredictable. Sometimes I just want to go and hide and tell everybody to come and find me when it all calms down and starts to resemble a normal life again.
But that’s the thing. This is pretty normal for us.
Almost 10 years ago, my husband and I accepted the call into full-time ministry and it’s been a bit of a roller coaster ride. And if I can be really honest with you, there are times I have resented that call. Plenty of times that I look at other families, where the dad works a nice 9-5 and the mom stays home and does her thing, and life looks routine and predictable.
But do you know what? That is not the story God is writing for me.
And as hard as it is at times, I wouldn’t trade it for anything, because I have never failed to see God’s hand at work all around me. And if seeing His hand at work in my life means me being out of my comfort zone at times, I’m okay with that.
BUT, I do need to learn how to cope better when things get extra crazy. So instead of turning to coffee and Netflix, I am ready to bounce back. Tomorrow I will share with you the 5 steps I am taking to get my life back in order.
Are you still struggling to bounce back from the holidays?